We only have 3 more days of class, and I can not find the motivation I need to study. . .
Dave is out with some friends, the girls are fast asleep, and I am trying to understand the differences between saber and conocer, (um hello) but my brain has checked out. . .
So I am reflecting tonight. . .
We have been in our house for a little over a week now, and we are starting to feel like this is home.
Last night, Emma said something to me, that got me thinking. . .
and since I have the time, I thought I would share.
She came up to me, and said,
"mama, I call dibs on the placemats!"
With a thousand and one things running through my head, I was confused.
So I said, "clarify please Emma"
And she said, "when you die, I want the placemats"
What a strange comment, I was thinking. . .
and then I got all teary. . .
Because, during itineration people would ask, "well what are you going to take?" "how many suitcases will you take" etc.
And it was hard, we packed 20 bags, and we each brought a carry on. So how do you decide what is the most important things to you, things that you will be ok if they are packed up for the next 3 years, and you won't see again, what do you save, what do you throw away, what is so special that it makes it into the 20 precious bags.
This was very hard for me, I gave the girls a lot of leeway, they brought things that I don't think they will ever play with or use. We left power tools behind and packed my little ponies, thats how important the girls transition was to us.
And now back to Emma's comment. To me, she wasn't just saying, "I want your placemats when you die" She was saying, "Mama, I love that we have a placemat for every season, when I am old, and have girls of my own (because she doesn't want boys) I want to make my home special and pull out these placemats to remind me of growing up. Mama, thank you, for taking the space out of the 20 suitcases for these placemats, you made a good decision. "
"Mama, you made this house my home, and I love it."
And that my friends, made my day.
and now I am teary again.